Already?

I am looking at possibly getting a new puppy...already. I called her breeder yesterday to see if there were any other sisters/brothers of Mollie's available. There is one...am I ready? She's a little girl, same golden color as Mollie, same daddy, but different mama. She's maybe be a little bit bigger than Mollie was, but still under 10 lbs. I miss her...I wish she were the puppy I still had, not the one I am trying to get over. I know Hannah isn't ready, but she's just scared to love another puppy and to lose it. I have a big decision to make. Kyle and K'Lynn are supportive. We'll see what happens. Going camping today...need the break from this tough week! This will get better!

Healing, slowly...

One day later and I am doing a little better. I miss Mollie the most early in the mroning and late at night. Early in the morning, that was our time. She would be in the bathroom with me while I was in the tub. She loved licking the water out of the tub, off of my arms and legs,etc... She would run around and bark at the oddest things. She would grab my towel and try to wrestle it from me. All of it seemed cute at the time, but now I miss it so much.

Hannah helped by taking the bed with the toys outside. That was her little part of my healing process. I cleaned my room last night and did ok until I had to remove her bedding and bowls from her crate where she spend my working hours. Her little black and white blanket was her favorite. I had just recently filled the water bowl, but the food bowl was empty. I broke down when I took the bowls into the kitchen. I went to the table and laid my head down and sobbed. Everyone else was busy, so I went un-noticed for a little while. Kyle came in eventually and I jumped up trying to cover it up. He just gathered me up in his arms and hugged me...allowing me to cry. He just said "I am so sorry". Perfect...that was all he could say and all he did say. I love my husband and my family. We will get through this. The sweet little friends I have at church also made me a card trying to help me get through this also. With the love of so many, I will heal. Love you Mollie.

My puppy died today.

I got a sweet puppy a few weeks ago. Her name was Mollie. I loved her like didn't know I could. My husband loved her in a way he didn't expect also. She was growing, learning new tricks, had a mountain of personality, and every day was an adventure. She wasn't housetrained, but we managed. She slept in our bed and snuggled with us at night. She played rough with Kyle, but would snuggle up in my lap. She even won the hearts of K'Lynn and Hannah, which is saying quite a lot for a dog. She loved Lucky, my sweet Jack Russell.

Today, though, she got out of the yard and was immediatly hit by a car. I am sure they never saw her sweet little body. K'Lynn found her and it broke her heart. She was finally able to call me and I was devestated. I stil am.

More later...I am trying to decide if I am out of tears, or if there are a few left to get to sleep with tonight. Lots of prayers needed...she really was family. I love you Mollie. Rest in peace.